Every time I drink too much , things appear in my mind are all expressed in En. I don’t know why. Since middle high school, My English is always the best in the whole grade. I love speaking it, using it. But I’ve no Idea why I would do that. Many of my high school diaries are written in En, event the daily schedules.

 Now I’ve work for near two years. I don’t have much interest in reading it, but speaking it.

 I have much thoughts in my mind. I don’t like to work all day long, just for living, and what’s worse, for other people. Every one has the right to decide how he or she lives, poor or rich, it’s not others who can control. It’s you. Your fate depends only on yourself. I don’t like spending much time wondering how far I can go in such situation. Change it, if you don’t like. And this theory also fits yourself, if you don’t like the current self, then change it.

 We all have to leave, whatever the surrounding we’ve got used to, or the people we’re much familiar with. People are always afraid to change, or to translate to the situation one is strange to. We’d like to stay the same. Until someday it turns to be a worse one that makes you angry or disappointed. But I don’t like it, at least on things I can change. People don’t often believe that they can, until someday they were forced to make it. Actually we’re all born to be talented, it’s just us who don’t believe it. For example, the first time I drive in expressway, I don’t believe it at first, I’m not confident in it. I event never think about that till a few days ago, I drove the car I’d rent onto the expressway. I didn’t think too much about that, just rushing to the destination. And 3 hours later, I made it. If you asked me the question whether I dare to a few days ago, my answer must be ‘eh, let me think for a while’, after which you would get the ‘no’. So don’t think too much, just do it. The more you think, the more afraid you’ll be.